Wednesday, July 6, 2011 . 5:34 PM
It's amazing how little things in life can cheer you up and make you smile heartily yet at the same time sheepishly.
It's amazing how good grades can make you feel so happy and make you feel that everything had been worth the sacrifice and effort.
I'm a free thinker, but somehow i believe that god gave me this. It's weird, because a free thinker has no god to turn to in times of help, and he pays no respect to any god on any occasion.
I mean, i dont go to no church and dont worship god in church, but yet he answers my prayers. It's that amazing sometimes.
But yet i cant confirm if it's really god, because i dont know. Nobody knows. Probably it's this mysterious feeling that makes life so amazing.
Because it could probably be my grandfather, because he has always been so good to us. It would be no surprise that he continue to bless us in whatever place he is in now, free from worries and woes.
I'm really grateful for the great results that i've received so far, at least to me. I've been smiling after receiving paper after paper, and i certainly wouldnt wish to frown and grim.
But let's face it, it's harsh sometimes. Tomorrow's gonna come and i'll still have to face it anyway. Pretty much flunked my composition. I cant believe i continued writing even though i've lost myself totally in the story. No, i wasnt so immersed and engrossed in the story, it's because the more i write, the more it doesn't make any sense to me.
Got to admit i felt dejected after not seeing my name on the bio hof. But still very much glad with my results, since i actually took the time to study.
Diary you know, its weird because, im afraid now that i cant do well for prelim 3. I've always felt like this. After an exam which i did pretty well in, ill start to worry about doing as well in the next exam. Ill start to think, how? Am i supposed to study like how i did for the previous exams so that i can achieve as good a grade? I really dont know, but somehow i've survived my education career till now.
I cant help but think of something my classmate said to me again.
"I seriously dont know how you got top 10 in class one sia."
Cause ya, i gotta admit he's smarter than me, but hey, words do really hurt.
Maybe i should leave it to divine to intervene, becuase i cant possibly punch him can i?
Well i can, but its not gonna be worth it.
Diary, i hope that tomorrow i will continue smiling, even if my results are horrendous. Please, thank you. (:
Thank you diary.
